This is a complaining post.

Okay, first of all, I am tired ALL the time. What is up with that?? I go to bed at 11 at the LATEST every single night, I set my alarm for 6:00 so I can get up and work out, recently I started setting TWO so that it would hopefully help me. NO! You guessed it, I hit snooze about 7 times. Its not just a half hour that I sleep in, nope my lazy butt does not end up getting out of bed until 7-freaking-30! How sad is that??? First of all, holy crap I have to be at work at 8:30, and I shower and everything in 40 minutes because I leave at 8:10, yeah that part I'm not really sad about, BUT I bet I would feel like I looked better if I would spend just a little bit more time on my appearence. I think we've already established how shallow I am so I don't need to defend myself. I feel like my weight is all over the place, I weigh myself 1 week and I'm at ____ (I'm not posting how much I weigh until the before and after pictures) and the next week I'm 10 lbs lighter, then 15 lbs heavier the week after that. Its so FRUSTRATING!

Plus, my clothes are being retarded, some fit and look so flattering and cute, and others seriously make me look like I'm pregnant. Its been months since I bought new clothes and I desperately need new ones I just can't convince myself to pay for them. I really need to suck it up though and just go buy some nice clothes that make me feel good, but then I hate it because I plan on loosing all this weight and I don't want to buy clothes that just won't fit eventually, but the reality of it is, I'm not loosing weight because I'm not trying, because I can't get motivated. I'm just going to have to buy some clothes that fit and call it good, then when I loose weight I'll still have all my other "skinny clothes" to go back to. Yeah, thats what I'm going to do.

I'm just sick of being fat, tired and lazy. I really need to get moving. Its so depressing that I've been so bad lately. Its just pathetic. I really just need to kick the bad habits and call it good. Just set a routine and stick with it, NO EXCUSES! I'm just gonna set up a plan and stick to it like glue. For the next few months if I'm MIA its because I'm gonna be at the gym kickin ass.

I thought a lot about taking kickboxing because it would be AWESOME! Plus, talk about an all over workout! That would ravage me! But it would be so great. I'm ready to start over and just have a good healthy productive me.